Heaven is a place on earth

Im Joo Hwan, my newest obsession

2009-08-29T03:46:57Z

From Tamra Island, "If you're not the one" MV

Tohoshinki no History in Japan

2008-05-30T05:03:22Z

In the recent Star Show with DBSK as guests while everyone was going gaga over their messages to their future wife, the one and foremost segment I was interested in was actually the first and last few minutes where they talked about their time in Japan. It's the thing that defines my love for them. Without even knowing the content in the last few minutes, as the atmosphere became solemn we knew it was serious talk between the host (who is the actor to this popular period drama I can't remember right now) and DBSK.

Coincidentally over the weekend I had the chance to watch the DVD History in Japan 1 which I ordered before I left for HB and it arrived while I was away. How should I say it. Even the DVD was about DBSK, it was somewhat painful to watch. The year when they were at the peak of their popularity in Korea they went to Japan and greeted by a few hundreds of fans. They debuted with the song "Stay with me Tonight." Honestly, it's not a great debut song. In fact I hate it. There was this event where the young men had to wear these white oversized lobster tails suit (for the lack of a better term) and came on stage to a small audience. They stood there in these ridiculous outfits greeting to the fans, letting the wind blew the flowy garments shaping their package in front of the audience. Okay maybe I was being perverted but seriously I would be cursing at the designer if I was made to wear those outfits. At any rate they being the performers continued the show with singing and dancing. I cringed because they had to sing and danced in those outfits. Maybe it was just me but I found this segment the most painful to watch.

Second was a-nation. If there's a way to measure their popularity, it's none other than a-nation. It's also a way to gain new fans which is precisely the reason why they have to participate every year. Being fresh and new, it wasn't unexpected to have very few fans. In fact in the whole vast audience I saw a handful of people waving balloons and responding to their singing and dancing. Their singing, dancing and jumping seemed lost in this vast mass of an audience who had no idea who they were. I wonder how it felt like to perform with a scene like that. It's like a comedian who tells a joke but nobody laughs. But the show must go on. Even if things didn't look too encouraging, performers had to push through to the end. A-nation in 06 was a big improvement. In fact I saw quite a mass of audience responding to them when they greeted. They also felt less awkward on stage. The year where they looked most confident was of course 07. They could even hear the audience cheer for them. I saw smiles on their faces. For the first time on stage of a-nation, they actually looked like they enjoyed it and truly had fun.

Back to the last couple of minutes of the Star Show segment. Jae talked about the year of 2006 when the swept a good number of awards then came to Japan and reverted back to an amateur group singing before 100 audience. Yunho started to speak of how hard it was that they wanted to do a lot of thing but couldn't, that he was envious of other Hallyu stars who got recognition (more so without efforts like they did.) Looking at Yunho I could see that he was trying to hold his tears. It must be a period where their pride got hit pretty hard. How could their pride not got crushed in such extreme shift of mentality, one on top of everything while other at the very bottom of everything. To simply put by Jae, "if we don't have that switch we would go crazy." Now I understand why Junsu and Yoochun cried on stage while singing "Proud". It was the turning point for them. It was the time when they felt things were going the right direction and that their efforts finally began to pay off.

Japan was a good experience for them and they know that. Now they've been through both worlds. One world was a world where they've achieved fame and popularity overnight. One world is a world where they've started from scratch and worked their way to the top. Victory only tastes so sweet when a lot of efforts were involved in the process and there was hardship to achieve that very success. Being the grateful people that they are I'm sure they treasure the achievements they had in Korean but even more so to the achievements they've worked hard for in Japan. The days of living dangerously seem to be over. Their experiences were not the only ones but I talk about them because I only see them.

This will probably be my last cheesy post about them and may be last public post period. I began to feel like I'm repeating these things like a mantra. Then again I also lied about not doing polls again. At any rate, I can only wish them to shine even brighter and brighter for they're like little jewels I love, like that of a family, like the little brothers I never had. May the force be with DBSK.

[Polls] DBSK whereabouts + others + conspiracy theory on single leak...

2008-05-28T03:59:27Z

Okay so DBSK is back after being awol for 1 week. We all know they're back but nobody knows for sure where they came back from. One thing I can be sure of is they weren't there for vacation. It's most likely they were there to shoot MVs for their new album and either another Photo Album or a segment for their AADBSK 3. El cheapo LSM always do the 2 or 3 birds in one stones like he did before BoraBora photobook/Hiyaya MV, Beautiful Live MV/AADBSK, Princes in Prague/O MV, etc... So what was the site? Some said Vegas. Some said New York. Some said LA. Truth of the matter is when going to the US, foreigners (especially Asians) only see LA and NY as the only cities on the map. I have no idea how the Vegas possibility came about. Maybe LSM has rain checks (that he never used) for free nights at luxury hotels at Vegas and enough for the whole crew. I bet that's what it was. 8D

View Poll: About DBSK

Before I go, I know the truth about the leak of their new single. This is what happened:

President of Avex called LSM.
Pres. of Avex: I'm deeply sorry. I shall commit seppuku.
LSM: What? Where? When? Why? Who? How?
Pres. of Avex: About the leak of Tohoshinki no new single. I'm so very sorry. We tried our best to keep it under wrapped but somehow someone was able to secretly recorded it. I must take responsibility for this monstrous error.
LSM: Calm down, my good partner. It's actually my doing.
Pres. of Avex: Excuse me?
LSM: Well, I purposely asked one of the employees to record it and spread it on the net. This is what they call free marketing. I can't guarantee about the effectiveness when it comes to Korea here but I'm pretty darn sure it will sell like hot cakes in Japan because I know fans actually buy CDs in Japan.
Pres of Avex: Ahhh... I see. Oh btw, I heard of a scandal from a member of DBSK. You must feel the stress.
LSM: Oh, not at all. It was actually my doing too.
Pres. of Avex: Wha?
LSM: I learned from the Americans. You know what they say there's no such thing useless press. Besides, I have other intentions.
Pres. of Avex: Sugoi. Anata wa tensai desu.

That's all folks. 8D

*edit*
This is the translation of your message to ajumma:
More poll please: ajumma is okay.
Dude snap out of it/Hmm another hopeless fangirl/I'm too l33t for this: I don't like ajumma/she has issues and I'm not hesitant to say it.
Houston, we have a problem: I don't like ajumma/she has issues but I can't be too blunt.

Hahaha, thanks for the input folks. 8D

Some HQ scans of Jaeho pics for those who want them...

2008-05-24T12:52:28Z

I'm going home to Philly now. After only a few days of not seeing them I already miss them terribly. I don't even miss my parents if I don't see them for weeks. This is so wrong. -_- Anyways, it's time to play good daughter and spend some good quality time with my parents today. Before I go, here are some scans of the pics I bought on the street when I was in Japan. Sorry for the dust.

[Pics] Breathtakingly beautiful Kim JaeJoong

2008-04-09T04:26:32Z

He's the ultimate epitome of beauty, the definition of beauty...

credit baidu + as tagged

2 tickets to Nagoya concert 4/15-4/16 available...

2008-03-27T05:42:11Z

I doubt if I'll be able to get rid of it since it's so last minute. Chances are I'll be selling it to Japan residents. Btw, the price $260 is what the person charge me. I'm not making any profit out of it. It's a Bigeast FC ticket.

But for sure I'll be dropping this off at a shrine in Harajuku. :D

[Fic] Wandering Cloud (last part)

2008-02-27T01:45:39Z

banner borrowed. I don't want to modify someone's PS product so ignore the texts if you understand it. credit as tagged.

Title: Wandering Cloud (viet fic)
Link to original fic: http://www.vcassiopeia.net/forums/index.php?showtopic=620
Pairings: Jaeho
Length: Long one shot
Author: Wpisces
Translated by: ajumma@LJ aka Hiroshi
Rating: PG-13
Genre: Drama (Ancient setting)
Summary: JaeJoong is not so foolish that he doesn't realize the love that the King has for him. All around the King, there are numerous beauties but his excellency still takes risks and sneaks out from the Royal Palace just to see him. Though his excellency doesn't say it but those eyes looking at him are always so intense and warm. JaeJoong doesn't resist but he also doesn't respond. He indifferently lets the King harbors hope and lets the King waits for him. He lets the King realizes that though he's close but the King will never be able to touch him. JaeJoong is setting a trap and his excellency is like a clueless animal not knowing that he's already being lost in the trapping zone. Should he be happy? The lure is already fallen into the trap.

But is it true that all is a play?

Night of full moon.

Two years passed. He doesn't even know how he could have lived through those two years. He traveled everywhere with no purpose. This period of two years was nothing but a empty spot in his life, haunting him with JaeJoong's images.

Wandering Cloud Court. Subconsciously his steps bring him back to this place or maybe deep within, his inner self always has longed for it. The inner sleeping chamber still lingers the familiar scent. The bed still imprints the slender silhouette. His heart feels extreme pain. He shouldn't come back to this place. Returning here only causes him more distress, only to realize that he loves JaeJoong more and more, only to realize that this life is meaningless without JaeJoong. If only he can exchange his life just to see JaeJoong once more, even just for a few seconds.

The familiar road brings him to Greeting Wind Chamber. The moon still shines brightly but the purple cascading curtain no longer drops down gracefully like before. The lotus flowers still spreads its scent but the light scent of incense is no longer here.

He sees a silhouette. His heart suddenly beats faster. His hope lits up. He quickly advances near as if he fears that the person would disappear. The path leading him there seems endless. Can it be JaeJoong? Can he see JaeJoong again?

It's really that person. It's JaeJoong. It's the silhouette that has been haunting his mind for so long. It's the person that he has been longing forever.

JaeJoong stands there with his back toward him. Wearing a black dress only makes his slender physique more slender than before. As the wind blows the lengths of the dress, it feels as if it wants to whirl JaeJoong into the cold blanket of the night.

"Yunho ah.."

As JaeJoong utters those words, he feels startled. JaeJoong knows he's here.

'Yunho ah... Why didn't you keep your promise? Why? You promised that whatever may happen, you will live... for my sake... You lied to me... Why? Why? Why?", JaeJoong's voice trails off and drowns in his weep. His whole body shakes. Fragile... Lonely...

Yunho stands there in silence and motionless. JaeJoong thought he died. JaeJoong is in distress because of him. JaeJoong doesn't know that he's still alive, is still very close to him.

"JaeJoong", he jumps forward to embrace the other person, hold him tightly in his arms. He's afraid that JaeJoong would disappear. The other person's body is so cold.

"Yunho..."

"Yes.. it's me."

JaeJoong smiles while his tears are steaming down.

"How many times Yunho?... How many times?.. Every time I cry, you come to me, hold me.. but when I turn around and wanting to touch you, you disappear... I must be dreaming...", JaeJoong's body trembles in his arm.

"But Yunho ah... this time I won't touch you again. Be it a dream.. or illusion.. I beg that you won't disappear. I'm already in too much distress... Yunho.. I can't bear it anymore.. I beg that you won't leave me... I beg you."

Panic. Fear. JaeJoong's tears streams out again. Dizzy. JaeJoong's tears stricken his heart, shatter it into little pieces. It was wrong for him to part with JaeJoong. He was wrong to leave JaeJoong all alone. Over those two years he was also in distress but at least he was living with hope and longing because he knew that his beloved is still alive. JaeJoong, on the other hand, has been living in hopelessness, fear, and loneliness because of the thought that he already died and because he didn't know JaeJoong loves him.

His tears drops. Burning hot.

"JaeJoong ah...", he gently turns JaeJoong's body toward him, "this is not a dream. It's real. I'm really here beside you. Yunho is right beside JaeJoong."

"No... you're only lying to me", JaeJoong shakes his head, "I only need to touch you and you will disappear."

"No JaeJoong. This time it's really me. I will not disappear."

Yunho embraces JaeJoong in his arrm. His lips press against JaeJong's cold lips. The kiss transfers his heat over to JaeJoong. JaeJoong knows he's not dreaming. He can hear his heart beating fast. After those two long years, not until now that JaeJoong realizes he's still alive. His beloved is beside him. Yunho is beside him. Suddenly he feels a stinging pain in his heart. His chest feels like it's being constricted, blood gushes out, everything turns dark. He faints in Yunho's arms.

Yunho holds JaeJoong's icy hands. His pale skin, his eyes closed shut, the pulse beats weakly. When Yunho saw the blood coming out from JaeJoong's mouth, his heart almost felt out of his chest. He can't imagine how JaeJoong could have lived in those two years. The life of a royal high King in his silken bed couldn't have possibly triggered this result. He's too dumb to realize the love JaeJoong has for him. He's too dumb to think that JaeJoong only lied to him. He returned everything to JaeJoong but took away the most precious thing. He thought he sacrificed himself for JaeJoong's happiness but in reality he only caused him distress. What can he do to make up to JaeJoong? His tears drops down onto JaeJoong's hand. Feels warm. JaeJoong's lashes slightly move.

Yunho lowers his face down and places a kiss on JaeJoong's lips. Gently. Soft and sweet. Safe and sound.

***

The King suddenly passed. Minister Lee temporary takes charge.
The people still live in peace.
Who knows that in the world there are two fools who prefer to be lovebirds than being Kings.
Cloud still floats on the sky.
But happiness is already in the grasp of their hands.

END

So this is the end. I intend to post another ancient fic after I'm done with that old place if anyone is interested. It will be more of a wuxia fic so the 5 gods will be fighting kungfu. At any rate, I only post per interest.

[Fic] Wandering Cloud (Continuation No. 3)

2008-02-25T06:27:21Z

banner borrowed. I don't want to modify someone's PS product so ignore the texts if you understand it. credit as tagged.

Title: Wandering Cloud (viet fic)
Link to original fic: http://www.vcassiopeia.net/forums/index.php?showtopic=620
Pairings: Jaeho
Length: Long one shot
Author: Wpisces
Translated by: ajumma@LJ aka Hiroshi
Rating: PG-13
Genre: Drama (Ancient setting)
Summary: JaeJoong is not so foolish that he doesn't realize the love that the King has for him. All around the King, there are numerous beauties but his excellency still takes risks and sneaks out from the Royal Palace just to see him. Though his excellency doesn't say it but those eyes looking at him are always so intense and warm. JaeJoong doesn't resist but he also doesn't respond. He indifferently lets the King harbors hope and lets the King waits for him. He lets the King realizes that though he's close but the King will never be able to touch him. JaeJoong is setting a trap and his excellency is like a clueless animal not knowing that he's already being lost in the trapping zone. Should he be happy? The lure is already fallen into the trap.

But is it true that all is a play?

Continuation No. 3

The news that the King was assassinated on his way to war creates quite a stir in the palace. At that time, minister Lee announces that he found the missing former Royal Prince of fifteen years ago. Though there's no clear evidence but due to his overwhelming power, minister Lee silences all the officials in the court. Besides, the Royal Jade Seal is in JaeJoong's hand. Having the Royal Seal is the same as having the power. Soon after that the ceremony of the new King takes place in great grandeur. The Royal Prince, Kim JaeJoong, sits on the throne in the cry out of all the officials in court, long live the King!

JaeJoong finally takes back what he has lost, his position, his power. Sitting on the golden throne in the high royal court, below is his officials kneeling before him but he still doesn't feel relaxed. He already lost the most precious thing in his life. The pain in his heart can't be healed. The only comfort is that Yunho still lives. He will never be able to see Yunho again. Maybe Yunho will never forgive him. But as long as Yunho lives, that's sufficient.

JaeJoong walks around in the royal study room. This is the place where Yunho read and approved proposals. The chair that Yunho once sat, the pen that Yunho once used, and a few proposals folded on the table.. Maybe Yunho was in the middle of looking at them. Everything carries Yunho's images. He tries to repress an overflowing emotions that's almost coming out as tears in his eyes.

"If you don't like it, you can just change everything", Changmin flips through the proposals.

"Don't", JaeJoong shakes his head, "just keep everything as is."

"It seems he's also a good King. Look, he approved the proposals very thoroughly."

"It's unfortunate that he wasn't meant to be King. Being a King not for so long and was already assassinated by the enemy. It's a good thing that he was killed while he lead his troops to war. He would be remembered as a hero."

"What did you say?" JaeJoong's face turns pale, "Yunho was assassinated by the enemy. Not our people?"

"Our people didn't even have a chance to act upon it and he was already killed."

"So... so... Yunho... Yunho...", his voice trembles.

"What's wrong hyung?"

"It's impossible."

"The report was written by general Yoochun. He's extremely loyal to Yunho. It can't be wrong. Yunho already passed."

The sight before his eyes turns into darkness. His head feels dizzy. His whole body shakes uncontrollably. Yunho can not die. He already promised him. Whatever may happen, Yunho must live. Even if he won't be able to see Yunho again but as long as he knows that Yunho is alive and is still living under the same sky, he feels satisfied. But Yunho didn't keep his promise. If Yunho is no longer in existence, everything becomes meaningless to him. The throne, his royal position, his power, these things mean nothing to him though he traded Yunho for them. Uncertainty. Nothingness. He doesn't need to live anymore.

Blood gushes up from within his body and comes out to the tip of his tongue, tasting the salty and metallic liquid. The nightly darkness blankets over his eyes.

***

--Flashback--

"Your majesty, please reconsider."

"I already thought it through. This is the best way."

"You knew from the very beginning then why did you..."

"I know. But my father owed JaeJoong too much. I must return whatever belongs to him."

"Yoochun, after you send this report to the palace I will no longer be King anymore. I want you to promise me one thing, as a friend."

Yunho hold Yoochun's hand tightly.

"Please take care and protect JaeJoong. Please be loyal to him like you were loyal to me. JaeJoong is the true King."

"Where will you be heading?"

"When JaeJoong is not with me, wherever I go will be all meaningless the same", he smiles bitterly.

--end flashback--

***

--flashback--

The Royal Flower Garden was filled with peculiar flowers and extraordinary herbs. Butterflies and bees were fluttering around the flowers, a scenery that is not any different with a garden for Gods and the fairies. This is the first time the young master followed his dad, Lord Bach, to the palace for a visit.

"Do you like it?"

"I like it very much."

"If I give you this place, do you want it?"

"Yes", the young master smiled happily.

Suddenly there was a strange sound coming from afar that caught his attention. He quietly listened to it. It turned out to be a instrumental song.

"Father, I want to go over there to take a look."

The sound of the instrument brought him to the plantea garden. A little girl about his age in a white dress was passionately playing a zither not even realizing that he was approaching. After the song ended, he applauded enthusiastically which caused the little girl to raise her head. He could only see her eyes slightly blinked. The little girl took her zither and walked away.

He ran after her.

"Please stop."

The little girl continued to walk away.

"You played it very well."

She didn't stop.

His face felt fury. He ran ahead and blocked the way.

"Why didn't you answer me?"

The little girl glared at him. He looked down and carefully observed her face. Her pink lips tightened.

"ah... it seems you're mute", the young master bobbed his head up and down in an understanding manner.

"Come here", he held the little girl's hand and sat her down under a tree. He pulled out a little embroidered and silky pouch he had on him, picked out two cinnamon candies then gave the little girl one.

The little girl smiled.

In his eyes, her smiling face looked so lovely.

"You are... umm..."

The young master used his hands trying to signal to the little girl that he wanted to know her name. The little girl looked at his disordered signaling for a while then suddenly giggled. She pointed to the sky. He looked up and saw a white puff of cloud gently floating on the endless sky, looking extremely light and flowing.

"Wandering cloud...", young master mumbled, "ah... so you're Wandering Cloud."

The little girl giggled again.

--end flashback--

Yunho wakes up. The dream about his younger years makes him chuckles. Maybe back then JaeJoong was being haughty so he didn't answer. JaeJoong pointed to the sky to say "Son of God" or "King". But he could only see the puff of cloud and thought of Wandering Cloud. And so after that he came back numerous times to the Royal Garden to find the little girl called Wandering Cloud. But once the cloud wandered away, how could he find it again?

Later on he found out that there was no little girl called Wandering Cloud in the Royal Garden. There was only a little Prince who often brought his zither entering the garden.

When he found about the conspiracy done by his father, Lord Bach, and realized that the Royal Prince is still alive, he asked people to look everywhere. He wanted to return the throne once his father passed. After all, his father was fallen sick and couldn't live for too long.

Wandering Cloud Court. His sense told him that he would find the Royal Prince here, the little Wandering Cloud in his young years. The scent of the Jade Heirloom confirmed the Prince's identification all the more.

He fell in love with JaeJoong the first time they met. A beautiful face. An attractive pair of eyes but they were cold with no emotion. They were no longer the smiling eyes of little Wandering Cloud.

JaeJoong wanted vengeance. He was willing to be the pawn in JaeJoong's palm. That was the only way he could be by JaeJoong's side though he knew JaeJoong didn't love him. The last night they were together. JaeJoong's lips and embrace gave him hope. But when he saw JaeJoong looking everywhere for the Royal Seal he knew that he was just dreaming. Sweetness, tender love and passion were all lies. JaeJoong will never belong to him.

TBC

[Fic] Wandering Cloud

2008-02-24T06:01:27Z

Mostly likely future posting may go unannounced. The reason I F-locked this is because I will be posting another fic which has to be F-locked and I can't link it from detox. So check back this journal often because I can't post everything on detox for a reason.

banner borrowed. I don't want to modify someone's PS product so ignore the texts if you understand it. credit as tagged.

Title: Wandering Cloud (viet fic)
Link to original fic: http://www.vcassiopeia.net/forums/index.php?showtopic=620
Pairings: Jaeho
Length: Long one shot
Author: Wpisces
Translated by: ajumma@LJ aka Hiroshi
Rating: PG-13
Genre: Drama (Ancient setting)
Summary: JaeJoong is not so foolish that he doesn't realize the love that the King has for him. All around the King, there are numerous beauties but his excellency still takes risks and sneaks out from the Royal Palace just to see him. Though his excellency doesn't say it but those eyes looking at him are always so intense and warm. JaeJoong doesn't resist but he also doesn't respond. He indifferently lets the King harbors hope and lets the King waits for him. He lets the King realizes that though he's close but the King will never be able to touch him. JaeJoong is setting a trap and his excellency is like a clueless animal not knowing that he's already being lost in the trapping zone. Should he be happy? The lure is already fallen into the trap.

But is it true that all is a play?

Continuation No. 2

Greeting Wind Chamber. The master of the house waits for a long time but the King still hasn't come. He feels alarmed. Maybe his excellency will not come. A slight feeling of fear stings his heart. What is he fearing? Fearing that the plan will not succeed. Or fearing that he won't see his excellency for the last time.

The King's silhouette appears vaguely behind the purple cascading curtains. The eyes that of the master of the house shows a trace of happiness.

"Waiting for me?", his excellency looks straight into his eyes.

For the first time JaeJoong turns way from the other person's look. It's a look that can see through his heart.

The King doesn't drink the wine JaeJoong pours but stands up, turning his back toward JaeJoong. His excellency's smile shows a slight sense of sadness. JaeJoong can recognize that there's something on his excellency's mind.

"I will be going away."

"..."

"I will join the army to war", his excellency smiles, "as the country is in chaos, men must shoulder the responsibility. I'm also a man."

"..."

"JaeJoong ah. Look at that. The lotus flowers are wilting. Our happy times should also end." His excellency's eyes looks into the far distance.

"This may be the last time I will see you."

A pain stings the heart.
Though JaeJoong knows that this day will come but when he directly hears these words from his excellency's mouth, he can't help but feel overwhelmed. The wind comes through blowing those thin purple cascading curtains. The person standing in front of his face seems so far away. He closes his eyes to repress a feeling of grief.

"Let me play a song for you. As a going away gift."

His precious hands glides on the zither's string. The goodbye song rises and falls, sweetly and melancholy.

"Wait", his excellency puts his fan on the strings. The song stops completely.

"The goodbye song sounds so sad. I want to play a song together with you."

After his excellency says that, he uses one hand to strike his fan gathering his ki. He tosses the zither flying upward, then catches it when it lands. The other hand circles around and holds JaeJong's waist. He uses qinggong taking both the zither and JaeJoong, flying to the roof of the chamber.

When JaeJoong finally comes to his senses, he already sees himself holding the zither and sits right in the middle of his excellency's embrace. His excellency's hand begins to lead JaeJoong's hands through the song.

The sound of the instrument rises and falls but JaeJoong's mind can no longer hear the music. He can only hear the sound of his heart beating out of rhythm. His excellency's embrace is wide and warm. He feels as if he's being protected.

His excellency's dad killed his parents. His excellency's dad turned him from a powerful Royal Prince to a lowly owner of a Wandering Cloud Court. His excellency's dad robbed everything that he ever had. He hated his excellency's dad. But his excellency's dad couldn't pay for his own sin so he wanted the son to pay for it. He used all methods to be close to his excellency, to kill and takes back what belongs to him. He has been living these fifteen years for the sake of revenge. He never allowed himself to be weakened.

But why at this time when the goal is almost realized, when his excellency already fell into his palm, he starts to feel weakened. He feels tired of vengeance, as if he never felt so tired like this before. His excellency's embrace gives him a feeling of warmth and security.

In this atmosphere it seems there are only the two of them. His excellency's face presses close to his. His excellency's breaths make his face feels burning hot. His excellency is sitting close to him. Should he lean onto his excellency, bury his head onto his excellency's strong shoulders so his embrace, allows his excellency's embrace to enclose and protect him.

When the song ends is when he comes back to reality. His excellency still holds him in his embrace. JaeJoong holds his breath when he feels that his heart starts beating louder and louder.

The gentle wind causes the reflection of moon on the lake's surface to ripple. Who knows how long both of them have been sitting there. Suddenly the King tightens his embrace.

"JaeJoong ah... I love you."

All around JaeJoong, everything seems to stop. He doesn't know anything else other than those words the King just said and the embrace that is tightening him.

His tears streams down.

Crying? He thought he can never cry again. Then why is he crying? He doesn't even understand it himself. He's like a person living in the dark, finding his way then suddenly a bright light blindingly dazzles him. Can this be happiness? Can this be something he has been waiting for so long, ever since the first time he met his excellency?

"JaeJoong ah, what's wrong?" the King looks puzzled when he sees tears rolling down JaeJoong's beautiful face.

JaeJoong silently shakes his head. His beautiful eyes are filled with tears. The King just said he loves him. Can he forgive everything, let everything go? All the hatred, all the distress he had to suffer. Can he forget everything to be with his excellency, welcoming his excellency's love in open arms? Can it be that easy?

The moon silently hangs low which suddenly makes JaeJoong frightened. He realizes that he doesn't have much time. If he doesn't act, it'll be too late.

Wiping his tears, he holds the King's hand.

"Follow me."
He pulls his excellency to fly off the Greeting Wind Chamber.

***

"Tonight, I will become yours", this is the first time he looks directly into the King's eyes.

"Why?"

"Didn't you say you love me?"

"Yes. but I..."

"That is enough."

His soft lips stop the King's words. Tenderly, passionately.

The King carries him to bed. The candles are blown out.

The King kisses everywhere on his face, his neck, then his shoulder. His scent drives his excellency into ecstasy. Dresses falls onto the floor. He raises his fair arms to circle around his excellency's neck. His excellency's strong arms embrace his whole body. Arms in arms. Lips find lips. Both of their bodies become one...

Tonight I belong to you. And belong to you only.

The dreamy moonlight falls through the window. Is it possible that he's dreaming? Yesterday the person was an enemy that should not share the same sky with him. Tonight the person is sharing the same bed embracing him. But tomorrow the person will forever disappear in his life. Is this the result he wanted? Is this his goal?

No. He doesn't wan to loose his excellency.

He wants to tell his excellency everything. Tell him that he lied all this time, that he has been using his excellency for vengeance. Because his excellency is the person he hates the most and is also the person he loves most.

Can his excellency forgive him? He prefers to remain quiet so the his excellency will love him forever. It's better than having his excellency hates him forever after knowing the truth.

Whatever it may be he knows that he and his excellency can't be together. This fact is what gives him the most painful feeling. His tears streams down his face. He covers his mouth with his hand to stop the weeping sound from escaping. His shoulders tremble. His excellency's strong arms once again embrace him into his chest.

"Are you regretting?"

"No", trying to stop his tears, he buries his head into his excellency's muscular chest. The King strokes his soft shoulder.

"Young master..."

"You still want to call me young master?"

"Umm... Yunho."

His excellency smiles.

"Promise me... Whatever may happen, you must live and come back."

His excellency nods.

"And... don't ever forget me."

Yunho softly lifts his chin, looking deeply into the pair of red eyes.

"I promise... I will only live for you."

His excellency places a kiss on his lips. To him all that is enough.

The next morning after he wakes up, Yunho already left. He understands that he will loose his excellency forever.

As he's done putting on his dress, Changmin pushes the door and steps in, his eyes look anxious.

"Hyung ah... Last night..."

"Don't say anything Changmin... Inform the minister that the Royal Jade Seal is in my hand. But he can't kill the person."

TBC

[Fic] Wandering Cloud (continuation No. 1)

2008-02-23T03:02:57Z

1. Something about the author: Wpisces is one of the best Vietnamese writers I've come across. The first time I read her fic, it was love at first sight. She used really precise words, ones that create memorable image and give readers deep impression. Reading her writing I sometimes can't help myself saying wow that describes it perfectly. However, so far she only wrote about 3 fics, 2 ancient and 1 modern. As long as she writes I will translate them all. Hopefully she will write more.

2. This is the 2nd ancient fic I translated and I just want to say I'm not a very good translator to begin with. I'm not a writer because I'm a lazy reader. Even my most favorite books which are Dune and Dune Messiah were skimmed through not completely read. The thing about ancient fic is the old words that the authors used which I have forgotten most so doing this I had to recall from memory of the 6 yrs in school in Vietnam and the 15 years of watching Chinese ancient dramas. Something about old words used in here, before the French came and brought roman alphabets with them to Vietnam, the Vietnamese were writing characters, "nôm". They weren't pure Chinese characters but more like a deviation from the source. These old words for ancient fics are romanized version of "nôm" and their pronunciation is very similar to Cantonese. In this fic, Yunho's father has a royal name of "bach" which means "white". It's kind of weird to translate it to lord "white" or "white" lord so I will leave it as lord "bach".

Also when Viet writers write ancient they don't mean Korean ancient but it's more like Chinese ancient. That's just because Vietnamese have been either watching Chinese ancient dramas or reading wuxia books forever so Viet writers are more familiar with that kind of ancient setting. So when you read this fic it paints the picture of a Chinese ancient setting, not Korean ancient setting.

banner borrowed. I don't want to modify someone's PS product so ignore the texts if you understand it. credit as tagged.

Title: Wandering Cloud (viet fic)
Link to original fic: http://www.vcassiopeia.net/forums/index.php?showtopic=620
Pairings: Jaeho
Length: Long one shot
Author: Wpisces
Translated by: ajumma@LJ aka Hiroshi
Rating: PG-13
Genre: Drama (Ancient setting)
Summary: JaeJoong is not so foolish that he doesn't realize the love that the King has for him. All around the King, there are numerous beauties but his excellency still takes risks and sneaks out from the Royal Palace just to see him. Though his excellency doesn't say it but those eyes looking at him are always so intense and warm. JaeJoong doesn't resist but he also doesn't respond. He indifferently lets the King harbors hope and lets the King waits for him. He lets the King realizes that though he's close but the King will never be able to touch him. JaeJoong is setting a trap and his excellency is like a clueless animal not knowing that he's already being lost in the trapping zone. Should he be happy? The lure is already fallen into the trap.

But is it true that all is a play?

(continuation No. 1)

On the same day the next month, there is no bidding going on but Greeting Wind Chamber still lowers the purple silky cascading curtains. The scent of burning incense spreads out and blends together with the scent of lotus flowers.

"It's you again Sir."

"Aren't you waiting for me?"

"It's only a coincidence."

"Oh really?", his excellency smiles, "according to me it's fate."

The sound of the instrument melodiously rises and falls, at times feeling joyful in the happiness of reunion, at times feeling melancholy in the sadness of parting. Meeting and parting may be pre-destined love tie or pre-destined debt.

***

"Why is it Wandering Cloud?"

"Customers come and go. This is not a place to stay. Wind drifts, cloud floats. Isn't that wandering cloud?", the master of the house lifts his cup.

"I see that you're a wandering cloud yourself. You're a cloud in the center of heaven, not surreal but not real, though pure but dreamy, though beautiful but indifferent. Feels close but seems so far away. Who can actually catches you.

The master of the house turns quiet. The King's eyes looks in the far distance. Their thoughts are drown into the soft waft of burning incense.

--Flashback--

"My beloved Royal Prince, I have something for you."

The Queen smiled and handed the little Prince a small piece of white jade engraving with very meticulous patterns. It released a soft and sweet scent, so pure and heavenly and at the same time intoxicated one's heart and soul.

"This is the heavenly scent Precious Jade Heirloom. It only releases the scent in the hand of a royal heir."

The queen tenderly wore the jade onto the little Prince's neck.

***

"My Queen! My son! Hurry up and run away!"

In front of them two, the King fell over, blood covered the dragon robe. The assassin darted their way. The Queen quickly pushed the little Prince out of the way. She held onto the assassin and yelled,

"My son, hurry up and run away!"

The little Prince felt frightened and ran. The blade chopped down. The Queen's hand fell off. Flame engulfed the East Royal Chamber. The sight surrounding the little Prince whirled round and round. He could only saw a hand pulling him away. He lost consciousness while hearing, "protect the Royal family!" but it was too late. The East Royal Chamber soon turned into ashes.

Official notification to the people: "The King was sickened and passed. The Queen felt extreme distress and as a result killed herself together with the Prince. Lord Bach officially takes the throne and governs the kingdom."

--end flashback--

"What did the minister say, Changmin?", the master of the house leans on the frame of the window. The sunset dyes his white dress bright red.

"Sir Lee said that the time is ripe. Soon, war will break out at the border. He will use the excuse of encouraging the soldiers' spirit to force the King to lead his army to war. After that we'll have our people assassinating him. Sir Lee wants you to quickly get the Jade Royal Seal that the King always carries with him."

Changmin proceeds and places his hand on the master of house's shoulder.

"Hyung, I know you're eagerly wanting to avenge but please don't be so hasty."

Changmin leaves. The master of the house is now by himself in the room, looking at the bright red sunset, just like East Royal Chamber engulfed in flame fifteen years ago. He holds tightly to the heaven scent Jade Heirloom. Minister Lee was his rescuer. As a loyal subordinate, Sir Lee helped him to take vengeance. He has been waiting for this chance for all these fifteen years, avenging for his parents, taking back the royal power that is supposed to be his. Unfortunately the master mind, Lord Bach, already died before he had a chance to take revenge. But that's not a problem. The son will substitute for his dad and pay for his dad's sin. The time is about right.

He should be happy but for some reasons in his heart there's a slight sense of grief.

***

"Why don't you tell me your name?", the King throws his deep as an ocean gaze toward him.

"Why? I also don't know your name."

"I... Jung Yunho."

"Sir Jung."

"Why don't you call me Yunho?"

Yunho sits down facing him. The master of the house looks at the other person closely. He's truly a handsome man. His eyes are animated and profound, his nose bridge straight, his lips defined. Everything about him exhibits an overwhelming air of a King.

"Let me know your name."

"....."

"If not... I will never come here again", Yunho smiles.

The master of the house turns his back around. Now he's facing the solitary moon high up above in the atmosphere.

"It might even be better if you won't come again."

The King gently embraces him from the back. He startles, hearing his own heart skips a beat. The King presses his face against his, whispers:

"Do you really think so?"

He doesn't resist. The embrace feels really warm.

"Kim JaeJoong."

Suddenly he wants his excellency to long for him.

***

"Your majesty", minister Lee stands in front of the Main Court Hall. "The situation at the kingdom's border is really alarming. I beg your majesty to lead our army to war in order to encourage our troop's spirit, quickly win the battle and stop this suffering for the people." The other ministers and generals lower their heads,

"We wish that your majesty will lead our army."

The King looks at his subordinates. He commands,

"Very well. I will lead our army and go to war on the sixteenth of next month."

The whole palace cries out long live the King.

***

"Hyung, tomorrow night is our last chance. You just have to pour for him until he's drunk then take the Jade Royal Seal from him. He will not suspect anything. When he finds out, we're already long gone."

"Why do you think he will not suspect?"

"You really don't know?", Changmin smiles with full of implication, "he's too deeply in love with you. Unfortunately the play is almost over."

JaeJoong is not so foolish that he doesn't realize the love that the King has for him. All around the King, there are numerous beauties but his excellency still takes risks and sneaks out from the Royal Palace just to see him. Though his excellency doesn't say it but those eyes looking at him are always so intense and warm. JaeJoong doesn't resist but he also doesn't respond. He indifferently lets the King harbors hope and lets the King waits for him. He lets the King realizes that though he's close but the King will never be able to touch him. JaeJoong is setting a trap and his excellency is like a clueless animal not knowing that he's already being lost in the trapping zone. Should he be happy? The lure is already fallen into the trap.

But is it true that all is a play?

TBC

[FIC] Wandering Cloud

2008-02-22T03:43:50Z

banner borrowed. I don't want to modify someone's PS product so ignore the texts if you understand it. credit as tagged.

Title: Wandering Cloud
Pairings: Jaeho
Length: Long one shot
Author: Wpisces
Translated by: ajumma@LJ aka Hiroshi
Rating: PG-13
Genre: Drama (Ancient setting)
Summary: JaeJoong is not so foolish that he doesn't realize the love that the King has for him. All around the King, there are numerous beauties but his excellency still takes risks and sneaks out from the Royal Palace just to see him. Though his excellency doesn't say it but those eyes looking at him are always so intense and warm. JaeJoong doesn't resist but he also doesn't respond. He indifferently lets the King harbors hope and lets the King waits for him. He lets the King realizes that though he's close but the King will never be able to touch him. JaeJoong is setting a trap and his excellency is like a clueless animal not knowing that he's already being lost in the trapping zone. Should he be happy? The lure is already fallen into the trap.

But is it true that all is a play?

Wandering Cloud

The sound of the instrument reaches one's heart
One glance from the eyes shakes the whole kingdom

"It's hard for the hero to escape the trial of a beauty... though knowing that beauty means disaster..."

***

The whole city is radiating in flowery lanterns. The Lunar New Year arrives at the same time the Royal Prince claims his throne. Thousands of families rejoice. The whole kingdom is filled with blissful air.

Wandering Cloud Court. The owner is famous for being very well-versed in Music, Chess, Poetry, and Painting. This Music Court is opened to render talent (but not beauty) for a price. When playing instrument, she only appeared behind the silky curtain, never revealed her face. However the rumor about her remarkable beauty that has the effect of "toppling a kingdom, toppling a fortress", has for a long time made a stir in the city. Many love-sicken souls just came to listen to the sound of instrument played by her precious hands.

Today Wandering Cloud Court is more crowded than usual. It's not only due to the joyful holiday but today, the person who can bid the highest price not only have the fortune of seeing her beauty but also be able to play verses with her all night. This is a once in a life time rare event. In the group of men, there are those who want to participate for beauty. There are those who go for the talent but as a whole they all harbor a desire. It's such a pity that beauty and talent are being rendered at a price like merchandises.

100 taels

1000 taels

10000 taels

Silence.

The person with the highest bid smiles victoriously. So the beauty will belong to him tonight.

1000000 taels

Someone yells out loud. All eyes are now on a young man in the main guest room. The bidding has ended.

***

"Please wait for a moment. The master of the house will come right away."

The maid leads the young man to the Greeting Wind Chamber in Wandering Cloud Court. Greeting Wind Chamber is situated in the middle of a lotus pond. On all four sides, purple cascading silky curtains hang loose waving in the wind while concealing the inside. On a table in the middle someone placed a wine bottle, an incense burner spreading its scent and a zither.

When the maid leaves, the person who comes with him says:

"Your majesty, you are really..."

"I know, Yoochun. But it's rare to be able to escape the Royal Palace. This is a chance to see the number one beauty in the city. I can't let this pass."

"But it's very dangerous your majesty. If this gets exposed, it'll be hard to explain to the Great Queen and your ministers.... Moreover..."

"Alright alright. If something is to happen, I'll always be there to protect you."

"But I worry for your own safety your maj..."

When the King sees silhouettes coming, he signals to the general to be quiet. Yoochun shakes his head in defeat. Though saying that, Yoochun is also curious to find out the face of this beauty.

The silhouettes close in nearer and nearer. The master of the house walks ahead, behind her is another person. The King and the general both are holding their breaths. When they get to the Greeting Wind Chamber, the master of the house stops then turns over to the next person and says something. The person pulls the curtain and steps inside. He's a young man who possesses graceful senses and refined manner. His bright eyes surpasses the ordinary but looking very serious.

"Sorry you two gentlemen. Only this gentleman can see the master", he turns his eyes to the King.

"I..."

Yoochun hasn't even a chance to say but the King already stopped him.

"Alright. My subordinate you .. oh... hyung can just leave."

Seeing the look in the King's eyes together with his eager expressions, Yoochun understands he should not say more. He quietly leaves together with the young man. When he passes by the master, he plans to look at her appearance but is disappointed to see a piece of cloth covering half of her face.

After the young man and the general leave the vicinity completely, the master of the house finally steps inside the Greeting Wind Chamber. The whole atmosphere suddenly radiates brightly before this precious appearance. A pure and elegant scent spreads all over the air, completely overcomes the scent of the burning incense. The King stands there motionless before the graceful appearance in a simple white dress, the length of the dress moves about magically.

The master of the house proceeds and sits next to the table, lifts the wine bottle then pours into two small cups without glancing even once to the customer who just paid 1000000 taels to be with her tonight.

At this time the King finally comes into his senses.

"Why are you still covering your face?"

"Why the hurry? Just have a sit Sir", the voice rises gently like a breeze. Her hand adjusts the zither's strings.

"I paid 1000000 taels but am still not even worthy to take a look at your face?"

"Worthy. But I want to know if you prefer beauty or talent."

Her precious hands glides over the strings. The instrumental song truly captures one's heart and soul. Greeting Wind Chamber is now no different than a heavenly scenery that belongs to the Gods and the fairies. As the song finishes, the King's hands immediately claps in enthusiasm.

"It's truly wonderful. But why does the song convey a slight sense of melancholy." His excellency advances forward. The master of the house lifts her cup to invite a drink. As they finish their drinks, the King smiles mischievously.

"But I'm more interested in your face. I think highly of both talent and look."

After saying that, he takes his fan and gently motions it. The ki coming from his strike makes the white piece of cloth that covers her face falls onto the ground.

The face appears to be strikingly beautiful, most refined. Fair silky skin emphasizes the pair of rosy soft lips, straight and high nose bridge. The long velvety eye lashes curve. The animating eyes attracts one's heart, so pure yet dark and deep like the night. It's truly a beauty so heavenly and divine. The King is completely dazed before this great beauty.

The master of the house softly sighs.

"You're too greedy."

As the King snaps out of it, he laughs out loud.

"What are you laughing about?"

"Really. The whole kingdom will be in chaos if they find out that the number one beauty, the owner of Wandering Cloud Court, is not a female."

"I didn't say that I'm a female", the master of the house continues to pour more wine for the King.

"You're not surprised?"

"Not a bit."

"Why?"

"Be it male or female, you're still a great and exquisite beauty."

The master of the house softly smiles. Though it's only a quick smile, it didn't escape the eyes of the King. That smile is even brighter than the moon at its fullest. Even the moonlight tonight seems dull before his beauty.

A sound of footsteps comes near. Both of them turn toward the outside. It's Yoochun.

"Young master. It's already beyond midnight. If we don't go back I'm afraid it'll be too late."

"Alright."

The King answers with much regrets. He turns around.

"You have to bear a loss tonight", he smiles.

"I?"

"Right. 1000000 tael is not enough for tonight."

Then his excellency lowers himself down all of a sudden and kisses gently on the pink cheek then uses his qinggong and flies out of Greeting Wind Chamber.

TBC

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I don't know how many are interested in fic with ancient setting but anyways will post more per interest only.

Jaeho Theater - Thorn Year Part 1 & 2

2008-02-20T23:12:14Z

Part 3 is in the works. I still need some soundtrack to finish it. The story is done.
Part 1

Part 2

Park Yong Woo cooks...

2008-02-11T00:39:20Z

He's still charming and funny as ever. I think I find the perfect match for goddess Kim Hye Soo's hand.

DBSK MVs Showing...

2008-02-06T02:27:28Z

O Jung Ban Hap Korean

Fighting Spirit upped by cutiesweetums

Hug upped by eternitykiss (veoh)

Tri-Angle upped by Hanuel (veoh)

Drive upped by pensusu (veoh)

Hiyaya upped by 7Passion

Believe upped by LeNeUccHi (veoh)

One upped by stuj (veoh)

The Way U Are upped by enany (veoh)

Love is upped by haseo268 (veoh)

I'll be there by Kayladbsk (veoh)

Rising Sun (Japanese) upped by Hanuel (veoh)

Step by Step upped by blueboo (veoh)

Sky upped by Nadil (veoh)

Tonight by cutiesweetum

Holding back the tears

Miss you

My destiny

Shine

Whatever they say

Thanks to

Sky

Rising Sun Japanese

O Japanese

Magic castle

Beautiful Life

Asu wa kuru kara

Step by step by rejectedlemon

Balloon by tmyan

Unforgettable and Rising sun kayladbsk

Hold back the tears by pesusu

Yakusoku by areein

Rising sun Korean by HeKnow

Remember by haniz

Get me some by MSsubteam

Proud by satori333

Happy Birthday Leader-shi Jung Yunho!

2008-02-05T13:03:44Z

Celebrate it well with wife who knows your true colors

Anh kia với đôi mắt u buồn
Đừng trở nên chán nản
Ồ tôi hiểu rõ
nó rất khó khi lấy ra can đảm
trong thế giới đầy những con người kia
Anh có thể mất đi tầm nhìn của tất cả
Và bóng tối trong anh
có thể làm anh cảm thấy nhỏ nhoi

Nhưng tôi thấy được màu sắc thật sự của anh
Toả sáng chói lọi
Tôi thấy được màu sắc thật sự của anh
Và vì vậy nên tôi yêu anh
Như thế đừng sợ mà để chúng nó phơi bài
Những màu sắc thật sự của anh
Màu sắc thật tuyệt đẹp
Như một cầu vòng

Hãy cho tôi xem một nụ cười
Đừng buồn nữa, không nhớ
lần cuối mà tôi thấy anh cười
Nếu thế giới này làm cho anh điên cuồng
và anh đã cầm cự trong khả năng của anh
Chỉ cần gọi tôi một tiếng
vì tôi sẽ đến ngay cạnh anh

Và tôi sẽ thấy được màu sắc thật sự của anh
Toả sáng chói lọi
Tôi thấy được màu sắc thật sự của anh
Và vì vậy nên tôi yêu anh
Như thế đừng sợ mà để chúng nó phơi bài
Những màu sắc thật sự của anh
Màu sắc thật tuyệt đẹp
Như một cầu vòng

Đôi mắt u buồn
Chán nản bây giờ
Hiểu được
Khi thế giới này làm cho anh điên cuồng
và anh đã cầm cự trong khả năng của anh
Chỉ cần gọi tôi một tiếng
vì tôi sẽ đến ngay cạnh anh

Và tôi sẽ thấy được màu sắc thật sự của anh
Toả sáng chói lọi
Tôi thấy được màu sắc thật sự của anh
Và vì vậy nên tôi yêu anh
Như thế đừng sợ mà để chúng nó phơi bài
Những màu sắc thật sự của anh
Màu sắc thật sự, màu sắc thật sự

Vì nó toả sáng chói lọi
Tôi thấy được màu sắc thật sự của anh
Và vì vậy nên tôi yêu anh
Như thế đừng sợ mà để chúng nó phơi bài
Những màu sắc thật sự của anh
Màu sắc thật tuyệt đẹp
Như một cầu vòng

[Question] Are you ready for a Dong Bang Movement?

2008-02-02T06:29:20Z

DBSK/DBSG/THSK fans (romantics, idealists, thinkers, revolutionists, visionists, enthusiasts, etc...) whoever you are, I like to hear your visions on how you would go about making the fandom known to them, voicing your demands so that they will come. This is a spam post so just state what's in your mind folks.

View Poll: Are you ready?

ajumma @ 2008-02-01T01:10:00

2008-02-01T06:11:58Z

Because I know nothing of coding and stuff, it'll take a while till I get the layout I want. That is after me having a chance to threaten my brother to do the work for me or if I actually will figure it out. Until then, it looks like this.